beauty for ashes...

In order for me to be truly grateful this holiday season, I must reflect back onto my past. The time in my life when I was so ignorant of the laws of God. It was a time where I lost the respect of everyone around me, and nothing was farther from my thoughts than my Creator. The life I was living was for sinful pleasure, and was only in the interest of myself. To be truly grateful this time of year, I remember a winter. This particular time in my life is a blur. Details are hard to come by. I was a trophy of my enemy, and he nearly destroyed me then. One night I missed curfew, so I just didn't go home. This was the last of many times before. When I did decide to show up, my bags were packed and sitting in the driveway. I was 17. My mother and my step-father were so fed up, they didn't want me in their lives anymore. I walked that morning, cold, and confused. I found myself at a friend's house, but was turned away. I spent that winter in a stranger's apartment. It was really just an attic rented out of an old woman's home. I had to walk to work(about 8 miles), and it seemed to me that I had been abandoned. Little did I know that the God who spoke me into existence was preparing me for a future of hope. I went from a broken and addicted youth with no hope for the future, to being a wife of one, mother of four, and a child of the Most High God. If you find yourself today feeling abandoned, or without hope, I encourage you to seek out the God who created you. He sent His son to die for the sins that a re plaguing you. It is not His will for you that you live with guilt and condemnation. He desires for you to trust Him. He will forgive you of your sins, and cleanse you from all unrighteousness. This holiday season, I am so grateful for the gift of a fresh start.HE gave me a new beginning, and He wants the same for you. I was a worm of a sinner. I lived in condemnation and guilt for too long. He has cleaned me up, and turned my life into something capable of giving Him glory. This is the sparkling treasure I speak of...the new life He has given me. He has turned my ashes into beauty.