...a vessel of honor...

Using this blog to record some of the most painful events of my past has been liberating to me. I have shared triumphs and regrets. I have shared rewards and loss. I have done this so that you can see that a person means more to God than their past actions. God is looking for people He can mold and shape into something usable. I used to believe that God would never be able to give me peace and joy. I was the most wretched person I knew. I always saw the best in everyone else and the worst in myself. That God can take me and change my heart of stone into a heart of flesh is a miracle. For some of my life I was thought of as the good girl, who never got into any trouble, and who had a kind and loving heart. I played the part well. However, I knew my heart and the wickedness that lay within. This is something I have come to realize....Lost people are helpless because they want to be something more than they are. They feel self condemnation at the way their lives are being played out in front of them. We all long for something greater than ourselves. It is human nature. It is a God given desire, and only He can fill that void. He can change the trajectory of your life, and make it into something you never even dreamed of. To some, my life may seem simple and mundane. In ways it is. Housework, homework, and feeding my family dominate much of my life. These are things that God is using to discipline me. It is making me stronger. My family, service to others, being a role model...these things are treasures that the God of heaven has trusted me with on this earth. These things make everything mundane about my life something special. Today, I encourage you to look to God for all your answers. Look to Him to fulfill your deepest needs. He will not disappoint you. He will not condemn you. He loves you, and He wants to use you...right where you are.